Without You

Your body
On mine
Intertwined
Interconnected as if
You love me as
You breath
I dream
Of you and me
Off in a better place
Holding hands as we scream
But, instead, here we are,
Just perfect you
On top of
Just me
You kiss my face
And then my neck
And the heavens explode
I hold you close
So you will never let me go
I hold you
Your body
Is heavy and solid
I almost feel like I can trust you
But I laugh the thought away
As you pull me on top of you
And I lay there
Feeling like I could live
Forever
And I feel like telling you
Everything
All my secrets
I want you to own me,
You already do in some sick way
I rest my head on your chest
And I feel your breathing
You're alive, my love
So alive
And my heart dances like
The first time we actually met
The first time I
Let you lie to me
And still kissed you goodbye.
As you speak
My throat swells up like a balloon
And flies away
And I can't hear what you're saying
I'm too distracted by
Your lovely voice
That vibrates in your mouth
And it sounds like music
My love, you always sound like music
You push me over again
And once again, perfect you
Is on top of just me
And we're molded together
In this perfect,
Beautiful
Harmony
As we lie on this bed
Your hair is in mine
Your weight proving to me
You're a human being
Not just another
Stupid dream
My love, you're as real as it gets
And I burn for you
My whole body burns for you
Our whole bodies pressed together
Maybe about to be
Swallowed up by each other
As you say something funny, I laugh
And you pull me deeper into you
And then, nothing matters
Not the scent on my face
On my clothes
On my hair
This bed doesn't matter
Nor the stiff springs
I might as well be on a fucking cloud
In fucking heaven
Fucking him
And I smile to the thought
Of this perfect boy
And his pefect body
In my arms
That are a little scarred up
Because of this perfect boy
Making me
Not so perfect
And all of a sudden
It isn't perfect anymore
I remember that
It's not another dream
It's a memory
And a memory doesn't last forever
It can't last forever
And he lets me go
This perfect boy
And his perfect body
Let me go
And it's
Nowhere
Near perfect anymore
He has to go,
This perfect boy.
I study his flawless face
One last time
His gentle, lusful eyes
His playfully dirty smile
And I wonder whether or not I
Just made that up
Then I remember
I love him
And I except the fact that
It was real
And it did happen
And without him,
I would be less then nothing
And I let that memory sink deep
Inside of me
Deep into my heart
Of this perfect boy
And his perfect body
And hopefully
Allow myself to remember
Just how perfect he is
And let him stay that way
In my memories
Because that's all I have left of him
That's all I'll have left
When this world is through
In a life that I live,
Without you.