Endless Cycle

Worn out from the days trials
Tired as can be
I slump to the floor
Needing something to lift me
 
I remember the colorful pills
My friend said"babe they'll make you fly"
Telling myself I'd do it this once
I decided to give it a try
 
Soon my heart was racing
Adrenaline was flowing
Sweat was pouring
Mind sadly unknowing
 
My tongue going 90 miles an hour
Talking to who knows what
Bugs crawling under my skin
Attempting to give them a swat
 
The sensation doesn't cease
Until 2 hours more
Of pulsating and going mad
My entire body was sore
 
Thinking I could sleep it off
I rest my head that night
Thinking I could just pretend
I didn't see those sights
 
Waking up the next morning
Was harder than ever before
I'm feeling dreary again
I call my friend for more
 
He sells them to me with ease
He knows this trade to well
He stays awhile while I climb the hill
My brain begins to swell
 
He takes a few himself
He doesn't want to miss out on the fun
Soon enough we're locking lips
The ride has just begun
 
His hands consume my body
I try hard not to mind
I mean,it's only fair right?
To take it from behind?
 
I had never done anything before
With a man atleast
Bloody bruised and buzzed
When will this hurting cease?
 
He leaves a few more on my table
Zips his pants and leaves
Soon enough I'm racing down the hill
My body starts to heave
 
Covered in blood and vomit
Crawling along the hardwood floor
I stagger to the table
Craving and needing more
 
After this high passes
I only have two pills left
I know this will not do
If only I had slept..
 
Feeling dreary yet again
I call up my "home slice"
Asking for my sweet release
He obliges if I'll pay the price
 
I sign a piece of paper
Not bothering to read the words
Too eager for my high
My heart fluttering like a bird's
 
Little did I know
I just signed my life away
Drugs for sex,sex for drugs
I never wanted it this way
 
The cycle that engulfs me
I'm know will never end
As long as I crave my high
As long as I fuck my friend