Sick Pain

I can't get it out of my head
It's so hard
People don't understand my pain
The pain of sleeping in the same room
The room you were molested in
The memories replay, over and over
Right in front of your eyes
They don't go away
No matter how much I want them to
I see myself again
How my innocence was ripped from me
How a picture was forever embedded in my mind
I can't get this taste out of my mouth
I can't make this sick pleasure go away
I want to get it out
I need it to stop
I need the feeling to bleed away with my tears
Tears of pain
Pure agony
Hurtful memories
I just want to cry  
Cry 'til I can't anymore
'Till I cry myself dry
I want to scream
Tell the world I'm in pain
I want to tell them all
How much it hurts
I want to feel safe in my own room  
My place of sanctuary
I want to be happy again