a little story about a big part of my life

this is a true story, but im shit at writing stories so its in a poem instead.



i met this girl
i wont tell you her name
it dosent really matter
the story is the same

i was in darwin
about a month ago
camp had just started
the morning was pretty slow

then i seen this girl
she was insructing a cource
dressed in long sleeved camo
speaking with little force.

i was instrucing
on the same cource as her
she seemed a little shy
nervous for sure

then i seen her sleeve
it began to rise up
beggining to reveeal tru emotion
in the form of a cut

she noticed me starting
looked at her sleeve
pulled it down quickly
hoping i hadnt seen

she looked at me woried
that id yell and laugh
like all the people before me
that mock that kind of stuff

i noticed she was worried
i waved to her to come
i had to show that im different
that im not a dick, like some

she came over quietly
tears welling in her eyes
i raised up my sleeves
and halted all her cries

i showed her the scars
she looked with great surprise
she asked me "you too..?"
tears welling in her eyes

over the camp
we became good mates
looking out for eachother
not listening to the hate

one night we went out
everyone hid in the grass
we were playing caputre the flag
hoping not to be last

she was lying next to me
not making a sound
both looking foreward
flat on the ground

eventualy the game
got a little boring
we rolled onto our backs
and bagen talking

staring at the stars
laughing and telling jokes
away from hatred and liers
regaining false hopes

my hand sudeenly brushed hers
intensity filled the air
as we grabbed eachothers hand
a feeling perfectly shared

closer and closer
we became that night
up to the point
where a kiss seemed right.

leaning in
both eager for a taste
just one small moment
impossible to waste

walking out of the grass
hand in hand
i felt like i could fall over
like a massive pile of sand

then something happened
a slut with a big mouth
began to spread hatred
north east west and south

im not sure what happened
to make this girl snap
but she walked into my room
began bleeding on my lap

two laserations
aimed down her wrist
tears in her eyes
hands clenched to fists

bandages and butterfly clips
semmed like my best friends
i patched up her wounds
and helped her to bed

on the fial day of camp
we said our goodbyes
we had grown so close
shut out all the lies

we dont speak any more
the distance was to great
how can we have a realtionship
when i live in another state

i still think about her
almost every single day
it hurts not being friends
but that just how things will stay.

this event in my life helped me
to know youre im not a lonely soul
thats there are others out there
stuck in a dark hole

i know this is a poem but this was a major part of my life, i am no good at stories so i figured id tell it in the best way i can..peotry. hope you enjoy it.