7/5/2012 (one of those nights)

It’s another one of those nights
The clock’s too slow
I’m thinking too fast
It’s another one of those nights
One I’m trying to last
I got bad ways to make better days
The voice in my head is talking like the TV
Just say no
That’s not a place you want to
Go back to
I used to self harm
And I want to chance my arm
It’s another one of those nights
I’m hanging on for dear life
Fuck the poetic portrayal of strife
See my head is stuck in time
Trapped in mistakes of mine
Stupid stuff I did cause I was scared
Hurting people cause I wasn’t prepared
This pain has to stop cause
It’s building to the top
I’m wrapped up in my blanky
Hoping I don’t move
These fucking meds knocked me off my groove
It’s too late to talk to a friend
Quarter to three is too late for a text to send
And I’m hanging on for dear life
Cause it’s another one of those nights
I’m at home
I’m alone
And I know downstairs is a knife
But I am fighting for a better life I made
Three years clean from the blade
Just hold the blanket close
Tonight is a night you’re supposed to last
The sun might not come fast
But it’s on the way
Things will be better
On a new day