You and I

You      said you loved me so
I           put my heart in your hands
You       let it drop and it shattered
I           wanted to die.
You       didn’t care, but
I            waited for you even when
You       wanted nothing to do with me.
I            forgave you and
You       never let me go inside.
I           washed away my tears.
You       pretended you were okay while
I            slashed my heart and wrists.
You       laughed with that laugh that
I            once thought forgiving.
You       let me burn.
I            never gave you up;
You       are the only thing
I            love. That’s all.
You       and
I            were once meant to be.
You       and
I            were once just you and me.
You       and
I            had a love like a fire!
You       and
I            let it die.
You       just stood there leaving me to pick up the pieces.
I            was so alone without
You       and your beautiful brown eyes that
I            was haunted by.
You       had never thought that we’d end like this.
I            always knew but I didn’t tell
You       because
I            thought
You       wouldn’t even have tried to make us work.
I            still love
You       will you ever care that
I            cannot turn away from what we had?
You       are still in my bloodstream.
I            sometimes cut because I try to get
You       out. Sometimes it’s just for the hell of it.
I            miss
You       every moment I have left before
I            slip away and die from
You       and your painful kiss of goodbye that
I            think about every single day.
You       try to get me to stay away; but
I            obviously can’t!
You       hate me for it but
I            can’t help myself from
You       you are just so perfect that
I            can’t believe I once had
You       and let you get away from me.
I            was such a fool not to see
You       for what you truly are, you are so perfect!
I            know that now!
You       are the only thing in this world that matters, but,
I            never will deserve
You.       Will
I?