Don't

Don't want to hear it,
Don't want to know.
That it was your fault,
You left us so.

But I feel it's mine,
Sometimes, somehow.
I hate that,
It's not.

I hate you.

I love you.

Tried to harden,
This heart to you,
But it beats and bumps,
And wants to be near you.

I hate that,
I hate it all.

A powerful word,
A horrid feeling.

I loved you so much,
So much so much!
And I hate that too.
Stupid stupid me,
Who didn't know you would hurt me.
Should have listened to sister,
She's older and wiser,
In things that concern you.

I hate that, I hate this,
I hate all things to do with you.
Why did this have to happen?

I love you, I love you.
Daddy don't go away.
I love you, I love you.
Has never been more painful to say.

I'm burning, I'm burning,
Drowning in hate.
I'm crying, I'm crying.
Lost in the feelings.

....
What do I do?