Life Sentence

 I loved when I open my thighs
       where you drop your seed

I took the shame
       when you said it wasn’t yours

I took your abuse
        when you went around calling
         me a whore

I withstood the looks  
        even heard their laughter

I withstood the scorn
         from my own kind

I still felt love even
          after you took up with another


I felt it move
           when I was seating in school

I felt the pain
          even called out your name


I felt the shame
          when he wouldn’t have your name

I felt Tried,
         
Sad,
         
Lost,
             
Pity,
               
Hatred,
                 
Bitterness,
                   
while I held my Life Sentence.


He has your face, your smile
         
I wanted to hate him
         
Because he was not you
 
When he opens his eyes
  his eyes are mine
 
I felt my Life sentence revoke
For in this child I felt the love
you were not man enough to give.