Sick and Tired

Written for "vent" competition



I'm sick of today and yesterday
I'm sick of tomorrow just the same
I'm sick of the limbo that occupies my time
and I'm sick of screaming your name

I'm tired of whoring out my heart
I'm tired of loving this pain
I'm tired of breaking my life apart
and I'm tired of starting over again

I'm sick of the sweet suffocation
I'm sick of each breath I breathe
I'm sick of everything holding me down
and I'm sick of the freedom to leave

I'm tired of sweating from carrying this weight
I'm tired of thirsting for more
I'm tired of living but loving to hate
and I'm tired of burning my core

I'm sick of every fake friend that I make
I'm sick of the bridges I have to burn
I'm sick of promises made only to break
and I'm sick of the lessons I loathe to learn

I'm tired of touch, and the trust it requires
I'm tired of tasting you too
I'm tired of fueling my facinorous fire
and I'm tired of burning the truth

I'm sick of the life I have left behind
I'm sick of the life I look forward to
I'm sick of fucking my fiendish mind
and I'm sick of fucking you too

I'm tired of bleeding into my beautiful book
I'm tired of the irrelevant rage
I'm tired of the capricious chances I took  
and I'm tired of every pointless page

I'm sick of the chaos I calmly create
I'm sick of exploiting my love
I'm sick of the tears, and of fragile fate
and I'm sick of not feeling enough

I'm tired of this altered state
I'm sick of what no one else sees
I'm tired of trying to hide in my hate
I'm so sick and tired of being me.