See through my mask

Smile like nothing's wrong he won't notice
Laugh like something's funny when inside you want to cry
Pretend you're interested when really
You don't care
Don't want to hear about how happy he,they were
Heart pounding
Chest hurting
Pretend you're somewhere else
Go far away
Deep into your mind and imagine you're happy
 Where you're never disappointed
Never let down
Never angered
Because the one who's always supposed to know and be there is as
Oblivious as a young child
That's all he is,a child
Easily upset,easily confused.   Never helpful
  Not saying I'm perfect
I have more Cracks than a mirror punched in anger
 But when I sense someone I love,adore,care about or cherish
Is in pain or hurting,I try and help,try and talk to them
Not go on and on about my amazing day

   It disappoints me that chivalry really is dead
From the start I knew I had my work cut out
You were never my prince for I am no princess in need of saving
Not my hero because you can't save me from myself
Not my angel because you came from hell before you fell from heaven

   I still love you without really loving you
You will not put on your armor and come to my rescue
Closing my mouth I know it's no use
        You were never listening anyway