I hurt him

as the midnightsun rises the tears in my eyes shatter unto to filthy ground ,as i say i hurt him,i hurt him my heart breakes without hesitation ,slowly my soal drifts away in a wrond direction wanting to come home im lost ,lost in this world praying to a cheap immitation of god as if god would deliver my soal ,my cold black soal . my memories remark the bleeding as i scream i hurt him ,i hurt him im sorry i hurt him , if only he knew how hard it was to say goodbye if only he knew why i had to end my misery i felt like the problem , watching the clock slowly counting down i rember that your knife went to my back the gun went to your chest and the noose went to my neck as i choke out i hurt him i hurt him