REGRET

All I ever did was love you, but you found a way to make me resent you
in ever way imaginable
All I hear and see are past actions and words that make the heart weep if it was reversed,how tangible
Sweet memories is what I crave, but why do I only see the hardship
My first in many categories but the worst in my book
I was a ride and die but you prove to me that you were a grab and go and that was all it took
The beast is out of its cage and I'll gladly let my thoughts run free so it can feed but only for a night
Im glad I had the chance to cleanse you from my heart and mind plus it took all my might
Absence from your voice and sight
Your touch and dark light
I fooled myself that I was in love
Just to witness what real love is really about
no candle light dinner, a rose or a written poem or surprise presents in a box,
found out my only love story was a hoax
always held it down because I was stronger
Until he said it and I couldn't stand it any longer
My pride will never reveal the depths you scared me with
So I removed the past and what reminds me of it,
regret is all I feel when it comes to you son,
how can we be friends when all is said and done
You heard me cry before my past friend but it was for you that I shed my precious tears for
Not Us, because if I lost someone like me I would cry till the heart bleeds
I will keep writing till my beast is full from its greed then my beast and I can both celebrate like its Eid.