MY INNER SCREAM

I used to have ah comfort zone
Where i knew i couldnt fail
but these lonely four walls were really like jail

I waited so long for things i neva felt b4
but look where it got me feeling worse then i eva felt
but i stayed inside my zone and paced them same floor
thinking this would get better..dats all i kept getting told

I even said my happiness didnt matter much
till one day my faith got tested and didnt offer me much
I said it didnt matter these things i was goin thru
I claimed to be so busy only loving the things in my zone
but deep inside i really only wanted something special of my own

But its hard when your doin things all alone
I woke up every morning only wishin i would die
hoping things get better and i could for get this scar above my eye..
I even made told him its not his fault
maybe i did sumthing wrong
Baby im not good enought " im sorry i pissed u off"
just pls dnt walk away baby sumtimes things get rough

Countless nights i layed here
while he physically abused me..even smitten by shame
his love sumhow blinded me..
what am i to do ..without my comfort zone
its hard for me to trust..
loving ah man so much..ik ah damn shame
but if you were in my shoes you wouldnt see it in dat way

But one day i got tired..and scared ah lil too
I couldnt let him keep winning
so i held my breath, and stepped outta my zone
I let my heart start beating ,packed up and moved on
I place my right foot forward ..with strenght i neva known b4
SO this time i said goodbye ,and closed and locked dat door....