Alexander Joseph Cappel Revis

This one is for my son. If you should read it know that I'm still searching for you.

For years now I've searched for you
But I still can't find my little boy blue
The tears I've cried and blood I've shed
Yet my heart is filled with such dread
Never will I forget that look on your face
When I held you close in our happy place
Or how your eyes lit up with glee
When we crawled under the Christmas tree
I still think of you laying in bed at night
I will never give up this fight
God this is so unfair
Is what I think when I hold your teddy bear
His fur is stained from the tears I've cried
Each one a part of me that died
Most will never understand 
What it's like to miss your son growing into a man