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To remember why
I want to scream
I want to cry
I want to kiss this horrible life goodbye
I can't stand to live like this
Ever so empty within
Trying to remember when did it begin
Perhaps in grade school all alone
Feeling left out and never to fit
Never a moment of happiness, not even a bit
As I think about it... Maybe high school
Filled with growing adults; atleast they thought
Maybe all the times that I have fought
Could it be when I left for the war?
A battle not all my own
Maybe from this my feelings were grown
Pondering if it was a bad marriage
Not paying the bills: working my ass to the bone
Trying to do everything on my own
After deep thoughts of wondering why
Working on my wits to keep them on track
Thier can be only one reason why
It's all of the things I can't take back
I want to cry
I want to kiss this horrible life goodbye
I can't stand to live like this
Ever so empty within
Trying to remember when did it begin
Perhaps in grade school all alone
Feeling left out and never to fit
Never a moment of happiness, not even a bit
As I think about it... Maybe high school
Filled with growing adults; atleast they thought
Maybe all the times that I have fought
Could it be when I left for the war?
A battle not all my own
Maybe from this my feelings were grown
Pondering if it was a bad marriage
Not paying the bills: working my ass to the bone
Trying to do everything on my own
After deep thoughts of wondering why
Working on my wits to keep them on track
Thier can be only one reason why
It's all of the things I can't take back
Published 28th Dec 2011
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28th Dec 2011 11:25pm
Never to fit in even if people see it that way. Reminiscing on memories that are painful yet somehow a link to the today.
Great write.
Great write.
28th Dec 2011 11:32pm
When you have nothing but memories the past is all I have. Kinda leaves no room for today. As always thank you for your comment
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29th Dec 2011 2:10am
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29th Dec 2011 11:01am
1st thank you for the comment. 2nd so glad you didn't say sympathy. For I was taught at am early age that you can find sympathy in the dictionary between shit and syphillis
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29th Dec 2011 1:54pm
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I think to sympathize is to say I have been through the same thing as you, or I feel the same way as you. No two people ever go through the same thing. Two people can have the same cancer, yet go through two different experiences and emotions. Two people can lose their mother, and will still feel completely different and grieve differently. I do not believe in sympathy.
I can, however, easily empathize with almost any one. I am a nurse, and this quality certainly helps in my profession.
I can, however, easily empathize with almost any one. I am a nurse, and this quality certainly helps in my profession.
30th Dec 2011 00:06am
I was a special forces med sargent for 4 years before I was a ranger AFO.
30th Dec 2011 00:12am
I was a special forces med sargent for 4 years before I was a ranger AFO.
30th Dec 2011 1:49am
I was in the ARMY very briefly...not long enough to count if you ask me, though they still call me a vet...whatever...anyway, I imagine that you are very good in emergency/trauma situations with that job title...great respect for you :)
30th Dec 2011 2:05am
I thank you deeply. I was trained to heal, but I was willing to kill when I sat back and saw who the animals really were. Then once I was dropped in Bosnia... I learned that anybody is able to kill and realized that it takes more of a person to heal someone than to hurt them. However if needed i am still capable to see the pink mist at a 1000 yards. Proud to talk to another vet.
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