REALITY AT ITS FINEST!

REALITY AT ITS FINEST!

Reality is closing In yet my mind still wonders away.
Yes I am in Manic Mode.
I can't sleep and I can't rest the pain is deep in My Chest.
I keep trying to fight this depression the best way I know how.
I have no help as I call out.
I Align my Heart up for you take your final blow.
I am sorry you have had to deal with all my Extreme Emotions and Sickness.
I am sorry I have been nothing but a burden to you not someone to Love and Cherish.
Now I am letting go of all I love in this World.
I devoured you with hurt and pain for no reason at all you think??
I stayed by your side through it all and I stayed Strong.
I have been working on Improving myself.
What a Complete Waste I am right?
I had to have some form of release as you kept pushing me away.
Hurting you with my words, I found no Pleasure in that just more pain.
Yet I was blind from the wrong I was doing cause the Hurt caused me to have no feelings at all..I became very numb.
We have each thrown our Poisonous darts at each other and yes we found the Perfect Mark..THE BULLS EYE!!
REALITY AT ITS FINEST!
I kneel and render up my Prayers.
I have begged for forgiveness and tried so hard.
To my Knowledge I receive nothing from you there has been No trying at all.
I'll fall asleep in a calm Tranquility Unhindered by this Worlds Lust and Greed to always search for more when they got something special right before there own EYES!!
I pray Everyone forgives me someday.
I close my eyes at my final rest as tears fall down my cheek,
REALITY AT ITS FINEST IS THIS!!
I WILL LOVE YOU HUSBAND OF MINE MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW!!