Weight Loss Journey 2008-2009 Part 1

Weight Journey 2008-2009 Part 1

In 2008 I was given a grim message and a dose of reality
High blood pressure, borderline diabetes, asthma & allergies

What stabbed me in my heart was the news my doc gave
You are slowing killing yourself chid into an early grave

It wasn’t until I had to go to a cold dark room to be weighed
On a animal scale and the shock hit me like bricks because it said

337lbs and I am only 5’5 inches tall, the adjacent mirror looked back at me
And when I really took a look at the image, I could finally see

That I let myself go and justified it with the bulls*** I am big boned
Unless I turned this thing around, my health problems wouldn’t leave me alone

Denial, pain and agony set in, even self-pity took over my troubled life
Prescriptions costing hundreds a month, who needs that kind of strife

When did the stairs take so long to climb? Why am I out of breath?
I suddenly realized, I am really facing a premature death

January 2009 I decided walking was my only option just too embarrassed for the gym
I have to do this for the long haul and be on a forever journey, not just another fad or whim

Taking my kids to their bus stop each morning and walking after they depart
Was keeping me out of breath, but there was so much determination in my heart

A promise I made to my girls as well as myself, before school closes June 16th 2009
Mommy will beat you to the top of the hill before your bus turns and that is my first finish line

Mommy we have faith you will do it, I thought no more of this goal
Until it was June 9th and the pressure is now taking its toll

Two times a time day I walked and my pace became very quick
I have a promise to fulfill, a defining moment for me and now I feel sick

For a moment doubts took over and now I feel anxiety the 13th is now here
My focus is crystal clear, my kids see me from the bus and they cheer

Mommy 3 more days and school will be over, the kids scream
Ms. Kym you can do it, my kids got their mom a cheering team

For the next 2 days, I am walking, panic is starting to set in
Can I really beat this bus, will I let this defeat in my head win

The 16th is here and my kids are up and early, looking with hope
Little do they know I have been up all night, unable to cope

With disappointing them/me and feeling like a complete flop
I said forget it, put my sneakers on and give this all I got

I was focused, refuse to let myself succumb to my fear and pride
All I could here in my head was Eye of the Tiger, and my feet now ready to stride


All I could see was the top of the hill and I heard my kids say mommy see you at the top
Determination and strong will took over, I moved so quick my heart felt like it wanted to stop

I was at the top of the hill and about 5 seconds later I could hear all these kids on the bus screaming Ms. Kym you did it.
I fell to my knees screaming and crying like a kid, no longer did I feel like Sh**

My babies came home and told me they were high fiving on the bus and said our mommy is the best
It was a defining moment for me in June 2009.  It took me on the next conquest