A short course in drug abuse

You came into my life,
made everything ok.
You made me so happy,
at first anyway.
Then you took control,
I had no say.
My actions, my words,
you controlled everyday.
I hurt people I loved,
my parents, family and friends.
In the end they didn't matter,
you were the only one that did.
The things I would do,
the lengths I would go.
To get my hands on you,
were shameful and low.
I'd lie and steal,
beg and borrow.
Whatever it took,
to get me through to tomorrow.
A cycle I went through,
day in and day out.
Doing whatever I could,
so I didn't go without.
I wasted so much money,
energy and time,
on something that would eventually,
shorten mine.
Your hold on me,
was relentless and strong.
No matter how bad I wanted away,
I couldn't stay gone.
You reeled me back in,
again and again.
The cycle continued,
would it ever end?
A living hell,
is what you created.
And the withdrawal...
far worse than anticipated.
Some people live this way,
day after day.
Hating themselves,
but they cant get away.
The control drugs will take,
when they get a hold of you.
Will destroy families and lives,
make you do things that aren't you.
People know the consequences,
of picking up a drug.
But people still try them,
thinking they'll come out above.
But they wont,
they never do,
the drugs always win.
Unless you say "no",
the torturous cycle will begin.
The cravings,
lying,
borrowing and stealing.
Cheating,
conning,
begging and pleading.
The night sweats,
insomnia,
cramping and aches.
The jitters,
paranoia,
anxiety and shakes.
The nausea and vomiting,
the thoughts of death.
The desperation you feel,
and all the regret.
I couldn't forget,
I made it that way.
All I had to do,
was just stay away.
I turned to my family,
and the Lord above.
Who supported me with,
unconditional love.
Hour by hour,
day by day.
With God and my family,
I found my way.