Almost

Why is it that
Whenever you look at her
Your smile widens
And covers your whole face?

All this time
I thought I was the only one
But now I realize
That I am the only one
Who can't make you smile like that

You don't even look at me
And when you do
It's not at me
But through me
Almost like you're ashamed of me

Almost

Am I an embarrasement to you?
Because I feel like I am
Do the things that I do
Make you uncomfortable?
Do they make you want to stay away?

You have so much fun
But only when I'm not around
Only when you're with her
Your frown turns upside down

I'm not even sure why I'm writing this
I'm just so bored
And don't feel like doing French
I suppose it's selfish
For me to feel this way
But I can't help but feel
Like everything is turning gray

It's not like you have a choice I guess
You've grown old and left me behind
Come by sometime
Ya know, once you get back
Until this I'll just remain still
And try to avoid another heart attack