Taking back Control

They're going through my veins

I feel the sleep take hold of me
numbness settles in
all is quiet and still,
peaceful

The meds are running through my veins

like a dam that's been broken
clean, pure water rushing through
tearing down my walls, my endless
labyrinth of fear, anxiety
my sadness.

My cities of confusion
my homes and buildings full of rage,
cliffs to jump from
turn to mountains to climb

Lamotrigine embedded in my brain

I'm shaping my world
it's all washed down
A new world I'm making

there are paths
I'm creating
the heat of the sun over my head
a breeze caresses my cheek
A change of the seasons
At last

I am able to conquer my pain