cruel lover

i remember us,    
the familiar vapor of your breath    
boiling in the spoon    
sweet monster    
maybe i left to soon    
 i never denied you    
until you brought me close to death    
still,    
we did have some beautiful moments    
didn't we?    
i believed in your magic    
my promise to you infectious    
when your inside me    
i have to remember to breathe    
pain-free    
so-free    
free?    
your love is not    
the cost to much    
still,i want    
to taste you in my veins    
 i can not quit you    
the cruel lover    
who keeps me begging
always for more    
heroin    
 remember the beautiful us  
and let me,  
love you no more    
   good-bye my beautiful monster