muted

this is where it all starts.
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i try with every
stutter
hesitation
held-in breaths
fucking hell, i would kiss you 'til you
suffocate just to prove
how much -

i just can't say what i
feel

you know what i feel
so

why do you ask?

it's hurting me as much as it's
hurting you
I know it's hurting you

but i prefer finding other ways to
show you how much i -

every word you say to me
i eat up with hunger
you make me feel beautiful
when he
had made me ugly
you make me
beautiful

until you ask me the questions
and i feel

fucking hideous

i try to say just how much
how much i love -

i love you?