I Give Up, I Quit, Just Let Me Go

It's hard to smile, it's hard to laugh  
When the only thing worth laughing at  
Is my miserable fucking life  
Filled with nothing and drenched with fat  
 
It's hard to see in the darkness  
That surrounds me everywhere I go  
I close my eyes and embrace death  
For love's embrace I'll never know  
 
It's hard to love without a heart  
I gave mine away so long ago  
Now she is someone else’s wife  
And I'm no one you'd want to know  
 
It's hard to want without desire  
I don't give a damn any more  
I'd rather quit this empty life  
And pass through Hades open door  
 
It's hard to know what love is  
When no one has ever loved me  
Don't bother trying to save my life  
A soul not worth taking for free  
 
It's impossible to save
Not even Jesus Christ will save me
From throwing away this waste of life
That's always been my destiny  
 
 
* 04/21/2001
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