Being Denied By Yourself

Lately Ive been thinking of you
The sounds that preach
silence and serenity.....peace with yourself..or is it myself, now?
Ive been alive all this time
yet im denied by my own ghost
I let the sun rise
and let the moon laugh at me
I know theres little use of crying
because im wide awake, and now the pain, im just used to
Walking the streets after dark
wishing my heart never met truth
stepping aside from the anger
knowing spaces in between
is where i can feel you
all these words that mean nothing...
its just not what i believe in
your knowledge of worldly things of pain
collides with my knowledge of the esoteric
there are spaces in between where i think
i can truly
hear you
lay yourself before the altar stand
and laugh with me
at the face of the priests of pride
i know both of us were both alive
yet both denied by the ghost of You