My Wishes

Sometimes I wish to be an Angel
Other times I wish to be a Demon.
Some days I wish my virginity to stay
Other days I wish it away
Some ways I wish to shine
other ways I wish invisibility was mine
Some people I wish to love me
others I wish to loathe me.
Some days I wish I were known to the world
Other days I wish I weren't born at all.
Sometimes, I don't want to be human
other times, I embrace it so tightly
In some ways, I wish to stay alive
In others, I wish I could just die
I have to admit, my life isn't always just
Sometimes its filled with uncontrolabe lust
But I have something to live for,
and I have some things  to die for.
I promise myself I won't throw my life away
Just because I had a bad day.
What do I have to live for, you ask?
I'll tell you, its no easy task
But my family is some thing to llive for,
My friends and oppertunities lying just beyond the door
But the main thing is.....
I HAVE A PURPOSE TO LIVE FOR. SOMETHING. I CAN'T DIE. NOT YET.