Fatally Forbidden Bliss

(a callobaration with shaman).  

The subject of my obsession doesn’t have a clue 
He’s in his office not noticing what I’m going through 
Every breath I inhale carries with it his scent 
The simple flashbacks of us together, 
Send a burning rush through me 
Because every memory is burnt forever 
I peak in pain and sink in pleasure 
Making my entire body scream 
And ache with longing passion 
I’m damned for life by lure 
Cursed by your temptation 
I twist and turn through lonely nights 
A tormented soul, tortured inside 
You’re sitting at your desk on the phone 
Probably with your wife 
Not knowing something that is true 
That right now I am cursed with the desire of you 
You’ve teased me gently, and you’ve liked to flirt 
You’ve led me on with games of plenty 
The cologne you wore was my favorite 
It smelled like sexual thirst to me 
I can’t stop thinking about the times we’d meet 
In secrecy, our trysts were always hidden from sight 
Yet, recently you’ve been distant and cold 
I can’t help but wonder what you’ve been told 
To make you act like you do towards me now 
If only there was a way 
To get you back somehow 
I send you an email with discrete details 
Of how I long to feel you inside me still 
You respond that you want to meet next Friday night 
For another spicy thrill in the moonlight 
I practically peek in my seat 
As I read your message with savory heat 
I meet his gaze as he walks into our hotel room 266 
No words are spoken 
We began to franticly kiss 
Freeing him from his pants with trembling hands, 
I let out a soft moan as he pressed deep inside me 
Taking me there up against the wall with frantic jittery urgency 
Gripping my creamy smooth buttocks 
He cradles me from the hard surface of the wall 
Kissing my throat and nuzzling his way down 
To my chest as he sucks on a swollen nipple 
I let out a soft cry of pleasure 
Wrapping my legs around his hips 
I whisper, “I love you.” 
“Shhh…” he murmurs, as he lays his finger on my lips to silence me 
I lick his finger, sucking it slow and sensually 
He watched me with lust, taking me more forcefully 
My body arched helplessly   
As his hips plunge between my silken thighs, I go rigid 
He tightens his jaw  to keep from crying out in release as we both climax 
Needing nourishment, I order room service for us 
Lying in bed undressed, our dried sweat tastes salty 
Munching on midnight comfort food 
We chat of things that use to be 
About how good our fucks had been 
I wanted him still, right now, like hell 
The plate of food hits the sheets 
As I jump him once again 
Though, this time he reacts differently 
Pushing away, pleading with me 
To resist my temptation because, he says 
What we had is over forever 
I look at him with hurt and confusion 
So, all he wanted to do was use me? 
To treat me like some office floozy? 
I can’t imagine why he doesn’t want these tits 
I’m sure they’re better than his wife’s, by far 
Shedding me like bad memory 
He throws me to the mattress and banters on 
Something about moving back east with his family 
For a crack at the political ball game in Washington DC 
He explains that he’ll be moving soon 
And that we will never see each other again 
At this, my head spins and heat seeps from my skin 
I really felt that he was meant for me 
Even though he was taken already 
But now it’s clear that we weren’t meant to be 
Since I can’t have him, then no one can 
And if it’s up to me, he won’t leave this bed 
Turning over, reaching for his hand 
I squeeze it and tell him I understand 
“Make love to me one last time,” I beg 
“Give me that, and I'll let you go with your wife.” 
“I promise not to look back.” 
Coming to his feet he stands in front of me 
His eyes so green, filled with a distance so serene   
I look at him seductively 
And my tongue begins to dance 
I wait for his head to fall back in pure bliss 
I take a bite and spit out a piece of his dick 
Screaming he falls to the floor 
Saying, “You stupid bitch! What did you do?” 
Hovering over him I look in his eyes, so filled with fear 
I slowly speak with the taste of his blood overwhelming me 
“If I can't be your whore, neither can she.”   
“Your wife will know what you did to me.” 
“You took my heart and threw it away.” 
“Now you will die for all of your lies.” 
“I can’t get them out of my head.” 
Grabbing the letter opener that's sitting on the desk   
As he mumbled in the background, 
“Please, I love you Tess. I lied. It's really you I want.” 
“Silence,” I yell, as I turn the device over and over in my hand
I slice his leg then move to his face 
Kissing his green eyes as blood gushes from his wound   
I utter, “Shhh…my love.”   
My hand covers his mouth   
I slice his throat, and watch him bleed out 
Walking to the door I look back with tears in my eyes 
Whispering, “I love you.”   
I wish you hadn’t made me do as I did 
But it's for the best 
I would never rest, knowing you were not mine