Maybe...

If you cut i do to,and i know which vain to hit.  You are pretty,gorgoeus actually,i....i just don't trust you or anybody else.  My heart has been broken too many times and i cant handle the pain,please don't blame yourself.  Hate me if it makes you feel better,i just didnt want to hurt you if i kill myself or go to the ridge,please understand! Y-Y I cried,i cut,and i fucking hate myself......</3

and you were the reason i live.....

I don't hate you
I can't... If you just can't trust me then we don't have to date. If you're up for it, we can still be friends. I'm not gonna cut... I never have. Don't take the way i behave right now as my reaction, because i can guarantee i will go home, the dam will break, and i will break down and cry

please stop crying....its killing me....

haha dude i can't help it
Your response made me cry
okay, i'm done....

i'm not.....Madison i loved you,i still do....i just dont wanna hurt you.  Ask any of my exes and they'll tell you i'm clingy and all this other bullshit but i end up brokenhearted and bloody.....I can't promise i won't cut

i'm not asking you to promise that.. maybe dating isn't the best idea if you feel that way. Just friends is probably best

Madison,i wanna call you mine an dbe yours but i cant.  I'm emotionally unstable and will probaly spen most my summer in the ridge or on suicide watch,i cant help it and i can only blame myself

We'll see what happens after summer.. bye for now

if i mske it through the summer,me and morgan are gonna hang out do be warned

You say after the summer.....when you might be at a new school and when i might live in tenessee with my mom......Last day of school might be the last day i see you.....will you even care? will you care if i just pass you by? Theres a quote i like,"I keep telling myself if you wanted to talk to me,you would." I will not ask you out again,i will not talk to you,but i will date you and i will be your friend,you just have to start it. I started our relationship and my love for you,i still have the poem you gave me after our month anniversary together. I almost burned it last night but i stopped myself to keep you in my heart. Call me stupid,say you hate me,i dont care.  I just dont want you to hurt which is all that you wouldve have gotten if we stayed together,im sorry madison.......&>

I'll talk to you, i'll be your friend. and i would date you, i would try again if i wasn't so sure i'd be at station next year. of course i'll care if you pass me up the last day i might see you, i honestly might cry. i still have all your poems... and about zach, if i wanted to date him, i could have done so much earlier. i would never cheat on any boyfriend or girlfriend i have. it's not who i am, it's not in my DNA. if my hugging zach offended you, you should have told me, and i promise i would have stopped. if you're so sure you would have hurt me, then okay. i seriously doubt it, i don't get hurt too easily. i'm a very understanding, trusting, and leniant person. i'll miss you a ton, Ben, and i'm not afraid to admit that....

Yeah, well i know nothing will happen

Madison i would get back together with you too if you stayed here

What if i end up coming back next year?...

If your here next year and im single,and you still love me,i will be yours forever,or until we break up again,which ever comes first

This is a good write. You express yourself well.