I used to have a bestfriend

You say my darling forever.
But i know that you dont mean it.
And standing before you hearing yet again, your excuses unfold, i know now.
You loved it when my heart stopped.
You listened for the silence, But you couldn't hear it.
And i can barely tell you i'm okay. I can barely tell you i mean forever too.

But you got what you wanted.
You always get what you want but you will never admit it.
I'd take all the blame if it meant that this would disppear.
But it's never been that easy. Not with you.
As always, letting the attention rise in you as you draw a line.
A line across your perfect skin. Selfishness? Tired of playing the waiting game?
You think that your fooling yourself.. When this whole time it had been me.

I could lie and say that this will all be over soon but...
Maybe i don't want it too be? Maybe i'm also tired of this silly game...
The game we've convinced ourselves is love..
But you can't lie your way out of this one.
Just like you did with her.
Cause i won't believe a word of it.
I'm not as vulnerable as you think.
I counted the stars to name your promises.
But i look at you and i know that my heart is already broken.