My life, My sanity

My hopes are dashed,
My confidence trashed
All that is left is embers and ash...
A fire without a flame isn't a fire at all,
I find myself running in circles,
My compass is spinning,
My demons are winning...
I fight for my mind,
I fight to keep sane.
It's the ease of the out that keeps pulling me back
Who gives a fuck
About the dicks that you've sucked,
Without your freewill,
Or for a quick buck
I hide the rapes
And the things I have gone through,
So that my loved ones won't have to feel my pain
I'm sixteen and I'm in a war,
I can't even remember what I'm fighting for...