When Dreams Meet Reality

My soul, dead-
Heart has bled-
Emptiness remains-
Nothing left in my veins-
Empty inside-
Courtnee has died-
Don't be sad, don't cry-
I wanted to die-
Never can I be woken-
I was shattered, completely broken-
Happiness is what I chased-
Never reaching it, my life was a waste-
Too late-
Too much hate-
Will be buried below-
Answers I'll never know-
Words empty, no one could hear-
Invisible pain, never see a tear-
Never coming back-
Life is what I lack-
It was a promise, not a threat-
Couldn't live with so much regret-
Never see me again-
Never feel my skin-
Suffered too long-
Every choice was wrong-
Soon forgot-
Tired, long battle fought-
Just leave-
Don't  even greave-
Why hurt for me now that I hurt no more-
Shoulda felt pain for me while I cried on the floor-
Don't need you, don't want you around-
I'm lost, never to be found-
Why care now, don't bother-
Turn around and leave just like my father-
Tried and tried, just couldn't get clean-
But refuse to live any longer as a dope fiend-
Dead...Gone...Eyes will close-
The pain I felt no one knows-