so lost without you

hell has been a blur lately                    
I miss our heavenly moments  
together greatly.                    
your love was a super drug                    
strong enough to seduce  
and sedate me.                    
but now without you  
I exist                    
void of your love  
and I'm pissed.                   
every day is harder to live,            
and most days I just want to cut my fuckin wrists.
but instead I go on suffering  
by remembering us             
and wondering how something so beautiful-
can just turn to dust.