Reconciliation

You make me want to hurt something
and you make me feel weak and tired
because I'm trying to be something I can never be.
Yours.

I remember being so angry
then looking into your eyes
or seeing your name pop up on my computer screen-
I Surrender.

I can't stop these feelings,
no matter how enraged you make me.
You make me fall into your arms over and over.
because you make me feel so weightless
You make me smile the smile I hate
And all things about you seem virtuous.
I can't stay away.
This is my steadfastness.