life to live

memories and idle dreams,
there is no adventure in my life
and i know why -
too much thinking not enough living,
there's no love or heartache to inspire,
i too much hide,
there's nothing in my soul to say i'm alive.

only written words i read in books and things
i journey in my mind
but that's no life.
pure blood and water coursing through my veins,
no secrets to reveal
from behind my shield,
it's bubble living, nothing here is real.

there's nothing in my soul,
it's all stuck in my mind,
well i know how i'm going to get out of my hole,
i'm searching for something to find.

new adventure, learning lessons,
making mistakes and cutting at my pride
for something to find.
head-first jumping and eyes-closed running,
moving forward not side or back in time,
i feel inspired,
pains and cuts and scars that tell i'm alive.

that safety living and give up drinking
that cleansed my body but emptied out my soul,
i grew cold.
one chance lifetime, the time of my life
to love as much and see as much as i can,
no holding back,
we're here for such a short time, no time to lose.

there's nothing in my mind,
it's all stuck in my brain,
well i know how i'm going to get out of my hole,
i'm searching for something to find.


afterword
not enough time to be wrapped up, protected by
bubbles and shields,
must love, hurt, exposing souls, risk, lose, feel.
no time to fear.
thinking of the now today, living in the now today.
no politiks, no money, live beyond existence,
no time to be, just do.
never held back by pride,
forgetting worry, there's so much more to life.
taking risks to live.
the worst make us realise we're alive,
scars heal.
never be afraid to jump.
take life by the scruff of the muthafucka
and always, always
disregard what people think, say, do.