Where is the solace

Where do you find it?

The solace that eludes
And exudes the stench
Of disappointment 
In the god that dropped you
Here
In the depths of disregard 

At the mother who left
Just when the going was good
To meet and chastise the god
That dropped us
 
Here

In the mouth of false illusions 

At the father who decided
That the chasing of tail
Trumped the chaos of boys
And looked to thank the god
That dropped us
Here
Where responsibilities
Fell away with effort 

Where do you find it?
The comfort that nurtures
A power-filled life
That doesn’t stink with
Lessons of abuse
Misuse
Aborted love
Short-ended lives
People with hate
And too little too late
Of the love that we’ll crave
While lowered to the grave 

Where is the solace?