"The  Pain  Inside  Me"

I hate this
I hate all this pain I feel
I want to hurt myself badly
I hate the feeling of my breath escaping me
I can't take this
Still I wake to endure everyday
I don't want to die
but I need not this torture that surrounds me daily
I can't sleep without seeing their faces
I can't dream a peaceful dream
I despise life
Yet I wake hoping that things might change
My pain is so transparent
Everyday they ask are you okay
And I say YES..
layers of my skin is folding me
I'm trapped within myself
I wish this pain was scabs so I could pick it off
then I can heal..