Labor Day

It's supposed to be fun
You'll have fun
I promise
Well you lied bitch
This is not fun
Is is shit
The best part is me taking to mike
I'm am not having fun
It's not fun watching little kids
Having little kids play with my hair
Maybe I'll walk out to the beach today and just go for a "swim"
The salty green water hidin my painful salty tears
Maybe I'll let the waves take me
The fast green water take me under and carrying me out
But you'll come looking
You'll come sceamimg my name
There is no way out of here I'm trapped
Like a dog on a leash
No not even that bc they can get away
More like a brick in a wall
Going down the elevator I can see all the happy ppl going to the beach
It hurts me inside
I will never e happy again
Not after what happened
I don't ever wear regular clothes anymore
I wear longs leaves or a jacket over everything all the time  
Except now I'm have my bathing suit
No jacket
No long sleeve
I feel naked
And I hate it
I wish mike could come save me
I wish he could just scoop me up in his arms and save me
Make all the bad go away
I need him
Not meds
The meds don't do shit
But he dose
"Britney"  
Oops kids calling ig I they woke up
Mom for Labor Day weekend
I hate it
But I live kids
Maybe Labor Day weekend is just what I needed