Demons That Keep Me Alive

Felt an ache in the core of my heart  
Thought to myself hope this will mark the end of it all  
But even my last breath won't come to me  
Maybe even death won't take the hold of me  
Hollowness and emptiness    
This feeling is making me a mess  
   
Through these past four years  
I've been dragging myself to keep moving ahead  
But everything keeps falling apart  
All my thoughts are turning into trouble  
Who is going to save me from my dangerous mind?  
My heart can't take it anymore    
I want to live for just a little more while  
   
I am not prepared for the future  
I am still holding on to the past  
Fighting with myself to be free  
Making my way through the haze of utmost confusion  
   
For some time it all becomes better  
Things start to fall back to their places  
And sometimes it is too damn good    
But sometimes part of me misses all the melancholy  
For all the wrong reasons  
It makes me feel alive  
   
I am not prepared for the future  
I am still holding on to the past  
Fighting with myself to be free  
Making my way through the haze of utmost confusion  
   
Feeling despair is all that i care    
Everyone sees me but no one hears me  
That is the thing about demons  
They mess you up on the inside    
Not letting anyone know whats going on