Mute

I've said too many idiotic things to talk anymore, I've learned my lesson about my peculiarities. I've wasted my love and my friendship with those who do not accept it or are grateful for it. I'm all worn out from head to toe from the selfish people I have met. There is no one else to talk to but that friend. Don't ever let anyone in again because they'll just run away. Don't see the fake smiles from the fake friends who want to empty out your life. I honestly would be better off as a mute so I would not waste another breath, trying to get my life back. I don't know what else to do anymore.  
This is my last chance.
Just shut everyone out and suck out the pain inside of my veins. So much pain that nobody ever sees...all they see is the smile of the girl with wolf eyes. At night crying out the word she longs to be real. That has haunted her all her life. That has made her who she is today. It's ok, I won't annoy you any longer. I will not torment you with my existence. I'll just disappear from this life and float on to the next. No, this isn't a suicide note.



It's a vow of silence.