Uncovered thoughts

Standing somewhere in this twisted world spiralling ....discouraged hatred growing in this heart...judgmental glances...  devil on one shoulder, Angel on the other....which one will win.... dreams shatter....unable to let it out knowing it would never end.... what next...stab me in the back tear another piece of the already shattered soul....rage building.... unwilling to give in drowning in a sea of disaster..  so many walls blocking the path kicking me 6 ft down...... tired lonely ready to end this life..... strong on the outside crumbling deep inside ....give me a break...just one in this hell of a life.... fed lies...manipulated for others desire....wanted.....thrown to the curb... never gonna love again... ending in nothing more then lies betrayal and wasted years.... tired of this life welcoming the keeper of the dead... touch and fades to dust... not much fight left....dragged further down. Give a reason to stay and continue these ridiculous games..No where to run...hiding in a blanket of darkness consuming masked shame...standing on the edge...jump.... not yet... more daggers to be throw... swallow up the love.... feed the monster growing within.... never have to pretend.. .. or answer to shit...never gonna have to open up again.