My friend that bleeds

I have this friend you see,
Well he’s not much of a friend,
But he’s the only one that talks to me
When we meet, I’m always alone
But don’t worry, he wouldn’t harm me
He can get a bit crazy from what I’ve seen though
But nothing that’s gone farther than a small bleed
We talk and we cry, but he’s always by my side
Lately however, things have gotten louder
The noise is excruciating, the pain is unreal
The cuts are getting deeper, as the blood spills
I tell myself, don’t let it dry
Why would I want time to cry?
I cry tears of blood, from my wrists they drop
My friend always laughs at me when I’m in a tough spot
I hate him, he looks so grotesque,
Like a beast, I smell his breath
He’s always there, like a black stain on my shirt
He’s always mocking me, now I want him to hurt
I want to kill him, I don’t want to see him anymore
But he’s always there, like the cuts on my arm
I think I’ve found a way, but don’t tell him please
I found these pills, and there worse than a disease
I’ll pretend not to notice, till he lets down his guard
Then shove them down his throat, and the problem will be solved
I’m so excited to get away from my friend
When you see your reflection, do you want it to end?