Cause & Effect

I'm angry and excited,
Talkative and attentive.
Oftenly not enlightened,
I'm upset and defensive.

I feel agitated and abated,
Frustrated beyond stressed,
Can't explain why I hated,
Or why I'm bipolar no less.

I break things and fix them,
Get mad and then get joyed.
This twisted shit Won't end,
I'm so tired of feeling annoyed.

One minute i feel full of power,
The next I'm pulling my hair out,
From within myself I hide to cower,
My bipolar is forevermore my bout.

I've lost more friends than I can count,
Not on purpose but it kind of happened.
I hide within not wanting to be found out,
From my angry actions there's reactions