I Hate Myself

I hate my self to the point were I just wish I could end my life.

I am nothing I know this I have never been anything .

Every day I suffer but I smile to hide it all but in my mind I think of ways to end my own life .

I push everyone who has ever tryed to help me away I can't stand my self .

I live my life never getting or try to get close to anyone becuse I know if they do get close I will end up hurting them or my self.

I never wanted to live I always wanted to die .

My brother ended his life with a colt 45  I want to do the same and just blow out my fucking brains .

I realy hate myself and this life why can't I just die.

The more I try to get out of the darkness the deeper I end up in it .

I am a demon there is no light for someone like me.

So please if there is a god just let me die I am starting to go insane from my fucked up life..........