The truth comes out

Oh boy I'm restless tonight
You've been gone for a year now,
I loved you more than you ever knew
I still love you so much
You haunt my days
You haunt my dreams
You follow me every it seems
My mind runs with out peace
All it thinks about is you and me
When I try and sleep
You're in my mind
It hurts so much I wanna bleed
It annoys me so much
I don't want to even breathe.
Cause you see you've been running through my mind
Driving me crazy

Josh you say I'm better off without you
But can't you see
I was better when I had you an me
Now I am scared to start anew,
Scared of never having you
Terrified of dying alone
But terrified of marrying off
I don't want to love another
Fear of hurting again
You left a gaping hole.

These words don't seem to make sense
Noting ever makes sense anymore.
Not since you left me standing alone
In that door,
Four years came an went
Happiest four years of my life.
I loved you for three
Like you said you loved me.
I bet you don't think of me
But I can't stop thinking about you

I remember the way you smell
The color of your eyes
That crooke smile
That really kept me alive
I remember the way you laugh
And say my name
The way you whisper
My life will never be the same

To me we were a fairy tale
A story untold
No one ever knew
The way I felt
I still don't know the you felt

You kissed my scars away
But when you left
More and more came
I said id never open up my wrists
For a love that was lost
But I never thought
I'd lose the love I loved the most.

So tonight I'll dream
Of you and me
Wake up with tear down my cheek
Breathe through my day with a heavy heart
And continue on
Until maybe, just maybe
I'll stop loving you.