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The Dying Cockroaches
The filthy little fuckers woke me up
from my medicated Bundy rum coma
I could hear them in my nightmares
climbing up the fibro walls
shooting shit like throwing flames
thru an air of khaki haze
writing in brown meaningless
Chu Nom dribble
dripping from my ceiling
crawling 'round on claws
crossfire over my black and white
checkerboard lino floors
scavenging in the mess
piling up in the kitchen sink
shadow hunting
hiding in secret tunnels
like bullets
in chambers
loaded
patient
messengers
of everlasting death.
Killing them means nothing to me
I'll rain fire on their colonies
crush them with full force
listening to their bodies crackle
under boots
and ablaze with flames
I watch them die
while they're still twitching with life.
Killing roaches didn't break me
that's not why I deserted my mates.
From a distance
I followed orders
I got the job done
I was dependable
accurate
senseless
detached from the violence
we inflicted from the seas
they shot at us
and we fired back
wiping out specks
of brown and black
on jungle shores
alive with insects
grubs and roaches.
I gather up the bodies
put them in the fireplace
along with the newspapers
my uniform and medals
passport and license
my birth certificate, photos
bank cards and bills
I burn it all
even the mailbox
I won't need any of it no more
all I need is my Zeppelin, Mary Jane
my Combi and surfboards
and a view of Jervis Bay from my window.
And when I see HMAS Hobart's back from Nam
the battleship ablaze on a napalm sunrise
home safe in Aussie waters from her second tour
I'll stand in front of my kitchen window
with the filth crawling over my feet and hands
while I watch the nightmares unravel
flashbacks to 03:15 hours
hearing my mates get ripped apart
watching them die
like roaches.
We were hit by a sparrow
fired from a phantom
in the dark
under friendly fire.
This poem was written for the "birth of the rebel" comp and is based on actual events during the Vietnam war in 1968.
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