"ANXIETY"

TODAY I STARTED TAKIN' EFFEXOR 150 MGS.
TAKIN' THESE PILLS TO CURB MY ANXIETY.
JUST A POPPIN'EM SO I DON'T KILL SOME FUCKIN' BODY.
NO MATTER THE DAY,MONTH OR YEAR.
IT'S STILL THE SAME OLD SHIT,I NEED PILLS,MUTHA PHUK A BEER.
DEPRESSION CHECKED INTO MY RESIDENCE BACK IN 1993.
AND HAS SINCE LAID DORMANT WITHIN ME.
LOOKIN' OUT THIS WINDOW AT 4 A.M.
NEVER WOULD I HAVE THOUGH AS MYSELF A PIECE OF CRAP I AM.
RAIN JUST A POURIN' DOWN DOWN DOWN.
OVER 20 YRS I'VE WORN THIS PERMANENT MASK ON MY FACE OF A FROWN.
ALL THE BROKEN HEARTS I'VE COLLECTED OVER THESE YEARS HAVE TAKEN THERE TOLL ON ME.
ALL THESE SHATTERED DREAMS OF A LOST LOVE THAT  COULDA,SHOULDA,WOULDA BE.
SINCE I HAVE NOBODY TO TALK TO ABOUT ALL THIS,WHY I SIT ALL BY MYSELF.
I STEADY JUST A TALK TO MYSELF.
EVERY SINGLE NIGHT.
WITH LIFE,NO NEED TO FIGHT.
THIS WHOLE PREDICAMENT HAS MADE ME CRAZY.
ALL SO VERY EFFIN CRAZY.
MY MENTALITY IS STUCK IN THE PAST.
THINKIN' OF PAST RELATIONSHIPS.
ALL THE FEMALES THAT GOT TIRED OF MY ASS.
ALL THE FEMALES THAT HAD ENOUGH OF MY BULLSHIT.
WHY MUST I DWELL ON THIS?
I HAVE A NEW WIFE,I NEED TO FORGET THAT OLD SHIT.
ALWAYZ STRESSED OUT,NEED TO BE PUT OUT MY MIZERY.
NO ONE TO ASSIST ME.
HELP ME WITH THIS ANXIETY.
HELP ME OUTTA THIS INSANITY.
I'M JUST STUCK IN THIS HELL TILL I RECEIVE MY CASKET.
ON THAT DAY EVERYTHING WILL BE ALL SO VERY FANTASTIC.
UNTIL THEN,GOTTA DEAL WITH THIS LIFE,WHICH IS A BITCH.
I SEE HOW'S IT GONNA BE.
THIS DON'T EFFECT YOU,ONLY ME.
SO SICK & TIRED OF HAVING AND DEALING WITH THIS DAMNED.....

               "ANXIETY"