Letty

This kind of girl comes around once in a lifetime
My father said
What did you do
What happen
What’s running through your head
I cant explain
I cant condone
Ashamed comes to mind
How could I let something so perfect go
Now all I got is this fucking rhyme
The first break was rough
Thinking what could I do
Sitting in my bed
The only thing I did, was missing you
The night of the eclipse we gave it one more shot
Cried in each other arms, having a heart to heart
The next morning was cool, everything was fine
Had you back in my life, once again she was mine
Then came that day
Where I fucked up again
This dumb bitch came into my life
But I’m what caused the end
Never should have happened
I shouldn’t have been there
I knew it wasn’t right
But everything happens for a reason
So what did I care
But I couldn’t live with the guilt
When I told her
She cried then and there
Told me I was just like every other guy
She couldn’t trust me, I crushed her
I felt like I could die
I had taken something so perfect and thrown it to the side
I thought it was over nothing I could do
See that’s what I thought,
Until she took me back
Finally saw the light
Could you imagine that
When I told you I loved you that was pretty real
Only girl who I’ve told and meant it, you know how I feel  
Had you back again, I wasn’t letting go
Told you I loved every day, and I was sorry so
I thought it was cool, until that faithful night
Saw it in your eyes, something wasn’t right
But I ignored it and acted like everything was chill
Little did I know, I was coming to the end of this lovely trill
No amount of I’m sorry, I love you, please take me back
This ride was over that’s it she called it, its a wrap
Now all I got is a girl, here and there
Sex while the boys passed out in the hotel from drinking everywhere
There’s not a day that goes by where I’m not missing you
Wishing you were in my life not someone else’s boo
I thought I was over you until that fucking day
Saw a picture of you with some dude, what else could I say
My stomach dropped
I felt faint and sick
I was crushed and hurt
It really cut me deep
Because you were mine first and I let it fall apart
No one else to blame but myself

Now you're gone and I’m here without you as my friend
I was lost and you saved me
Am I suppose to start again
Because all the womanizing I did before I met you didn’t mean a thing
Letty you’re the love of my life.
Maybe one day …you’ll let me back in  


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