Jealousy

sickness of the mind and body
rocking and rolling through ones body
silver daggers of poison leaking
passing impenetrable walls

the stomach twisting in to knots
over and over
creating designs never before seen
in or outside of the human body

stomach clenching
the burn of bile in the throat
complete emptiness within one's soul
and everything they had begun to build comes crashing down around them

the unquenchable desire to be rid of this curse
this sulfuric curse
a curse that binds my throat
allowing no words from the heart to escape
a curse on the mind
fogging all thoughts

pushing down the side effects of this curse
can cause nothing good
despair and depression
follow in its wake

how can I be so blind as to not see it coming
time and time again
it comes sounding a horn
so loud it is deafening
and bearing a light so bright
it will burn away all the humanity within me
and leave me
as nothing more than empty husk

jealousy is a beast not to be trifled with
and yet
it comes on welcomed
but totally expected

strike me down
before this ailment does
I do not know
how much more of this I can take

hopes and promises
constantly being thrown about
creating the tiniest cracks in my wall
plenty large enough for the poison dagger to obliterate my suffering heart

even with this curse of jealousy
I could want nothing more
then just to be in your life
no secrets
this is my curse to bare alone
I still will be forever there, and I hope that you won't ever leave