Sometimes Losing Touch

When I look for that warm environment
To "get out of the train while it is still moving"
To feel something
To be apart of a great sea of ideas
and people
seen or unseen
The request to live life w/ one's own narrative
To feel a sense of poignancy  
To increase ones dopamine levels
naturally and sub-naturally
if living is "a horizontal fall"
should I not live in such a great play as ones
own madness creates?  
 
Qoutes from Jean Cocteau