Once again the journey begins...

Once again I couldn't keep the monster at bay
It crossed a line I swore I'd never let it do

I'm now back at the beginning
Trying to rebuild a wall I felt was solid
I'm not asking for forgiveness nor understanding

You could never forget so forgiveness isn't an option
You could/will never understand my demons

The most I can do is incarcerate them ... again
The walls will have to be higher

I'm a better person now because of you
I saw my reflection in your eyes/heard the caring in your voice

Your instructions were clear
Tell me what I need to do for you

I needed to be reminded that I'm not alone
I don't have to do everything myself

I have family that loves and cares for me
[b]I don't have to be ashamed of what happened
I've already grown from it
[/b]
I've added a few new faces to my circle now
How long they stay depends on them
You see...
I will not be bullied into thinking I should process information like them    
A minor thing at this point in time          
               
I will take what they offer
In turn I hope to enlighten them as well

A friend once told me...
I don't go to church for anyone but myself
I go to develop my own relationship with God

I meet with them to develop my relationship with me
They are the steps I need to accomplish this
However...
I will do what I need to do to stay stable

Raise with me or be a bump in the road
Your call
In either case...
Once again I start my journey

TAM July 13,2014 ... Day five