Pain webs

I sit and watch the world spin infront of me,
life continuing while i just sit and watch
My heart is heavy,
tears dance as i blink my eyes.
I sit, unable to move from where i am
consumed by anger, hurt, disappointments
my soul tormented by my failures 
mental
emotional
physical pains contort my body as i sit and the watch the world spin before me
 
dreams fade
challenges taunt me
I try to take a step forward
i stumble.... 
tears now cascade the walls of my face as i watch the world spin further and further away
seconds turn to days
days to years
years to an eternity
can you feel it?
feel my pain?
hold it in your hand
its as tangible as my tears that fall
 
I rise and turn my back to the view infront of me
close my eyes and takes a deep breathe
the wind sweeps me off my feet
i lose my self, my sanity
and let it all go
leaving the pain behind.